-sighs-
a long time since ive bloggd..*pauses*
hello!!!

rescue me from hangin on this line..
i wun give up on giving u
e chance to blow my mind..

there no song rite now that can say how i feel..
...a hole in my heart which only [god] can fill..
rain has fallen..n its still raining..
e sun seems like it wun shine..

lord i trust in you.
i have said, '' You are my [god].
my life is in your hands.''

when all my world starts crashing down
when all i noe falls to e ground
when darkness comes n i cant see
ure always there to rescue me

--sunday--18th april--
*downpourinmysoul
icantbreathe...blindedbyerain...shortofbreath

d o e s a n y o n e u n d e r s t a n d ?

the words echoe to me..'whats wrong with you?'
no one to shelter..rain, rain on my face..
im fine..i am...how i wishd u were here..
to wipe away my tears..to hold me in ur arms..
i dun noe if i ll make it thru dis darkest nite..
i wonder if ure near?
seems like ive tried so hard n still ive let u down
-faded memories-






iliveforyou
allofmydaysbelongtoyou

will things be the same?
will it ever be the same..

i cant be e way i used to be..a part of me has faded..haven stopped raining for days..cant feel my feet touching the ground..

*puts on my mask*
grins n flys away~

3:23 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

hahs..doin my chinese compre now..waah..it surely rox i tell u..
-sighs-
ok wanna blog my diary one..on sunday..28/3


[wad i wrote in my dearest bloved diary]

so down..my maths so suxk..n tired of everything..


''rain, rain on my face
.................It hasn't stopped raining for days
My world is a flood
.................Slowly I become one with the mud

But if I can't swim after forty days
....and my mind is crushed by the thrashing waves
Lift me up so high that I cannot fall
....Lift me up
Lift me up - when I'm [falling]
Lift me up - I'm [weak] and I'm [dying]
Lift me up - I need you to hold me
Lift me up - Keep me from drowning again

Downpour on my soul
...Splashing in the ocean, I'm losing control
Dark sky all around
...I can't feel my feet touching the ground


Calm the storms that drench my eyes `tears
Dry the streams still flowing
Cast down all the waves of sin
And guilt that overthrow me ''


-sighs-
no..im not gonna let it pull mi down..
[ i need y o u here]
...hide mi now under your wings O LORD...
-reads bible-


~as the deer pants for streams of water
so my soul pants for you, O God
my soul pants for [god], the l i v i n g [god]
when can i go n meet my [god]
.................................................................................

why are you so //disturbed// my soul?
why so downcast within mi?
put your hope in [god]
for i will yet praise him
my saviour and my [ g o d ]
why caron? trust in him..he will nv let you go..

im gonna cheer up..:)-weak grin-
the joy of the [LORD] is my s t r e n g t h
so tired...
`lites off


[29 march]
hurray!!! hahs..ask class ppl to go..yea man..3C rocks!! whoo~ they wanna go..thank god..n i was scared no one wud go..but sighs..pq..*looks to god*i dono bout her..wells..jux pray...
-thinks-
wanna reali focus on studies..dun wanna let anithing else affect it..man..so difficult..n help mi!! my madness..part of it has faded..-sigh- haf i changed? i dun wanna change..at least not 4 e worst..*prays*oh chemistry sux laaa...


[back to today]
oh u noe adrian spell my name as carion..ahh!! so goondu..*punch him* hahs.. dun call mi dat i tell u..(whoeva is readin) hmmph~ k la.betta do my compre..oh no! no time..
`scoots off to do
grinx

4:33 PM

*screams*
ahh!! stupid com..cant go msn now..oso dono y..e net messenger sux la..huhz..goondu..cant chat di..*whines*
haha..today skool lene laf bout my holey skirt..hee..e hole super big..i c oso laf..den i made so much noise ginny scolded mi..sobz..*oops..im sori bai chi 1..din mean to disturb u doin ur maths..smile k..

4:28 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

shout it out (:

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all the brothers and sisters

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of old.

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credits.

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wonderful people

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